Your dose.

   ”Coffee.” A word came out from Andrew’s mouth. Followed by “Coffee, best drink when it’s hot. Drink it too fast, your tongue might get burned. Drink it too slow, it gets cold and it wont be as good as before” Andrew smiled and said “Sky.” She smiles and said “Followed by rough wind of winter, soon there will be sky. Beneath those cotton soft clouds, soon there will be colours.” Andrew was impressed on how good was Olivia in managing words. They were laughing all the way home.

    Since the death of Olivia’s dad, bonds between Andrew and her was stronger than ever. Their love, was colourful. Everything that Andrew did was colourful. Even the tiniest thing like kissing Olivia on the forehead.

    On the graduation day, Olivia grabbed Andrew’s hand and pulled him to somewhere quiet. And slowly, she whispered ”I love you.” They kissed. For the first time, it was right on Andrew’s lips. Few months later, Andrew received an acceptance letter from a well known university. Andrew did not know what to react, as if something was not meant to be. Or maybe something was not right.

    Words spread as fast beautiful chimes floating in the air. Everyone was busy congratulating Andrew except Olivia. She was afraid of Andrew being far away from her. She loved Andrew too much to let him slips from her sight. But she tried her best to smile and gave Andrew a warm hug. The warmth that will never fade. Not until the world ends.

    That night, Andrew went to Olivia’s house to explain something bout how he felt about the university. “Oli, I love you. I really do. But my mum was hoping that I could be successful in live. I don’t want to let her down. I know how you feel bout me going so far away from you. I know. I’ve been thinking the same too. And, I don’t want to think about it. So, let’s move on. Move into our own path of lives.” Said Andrew. Olivia laughed and said “Ah, sure. I don’t believe in long-distance relationship anyway. I gotta go and meet my friends after this. I want to go and get ready. So, take care. Good luck for your university.” Andrew thought that it will be hard for Olivia to take it. But he guessed that he was wrong, he walked away from Olivia like dust blown away by wind. As soon as Andrew steps out from her house, tears born in her eyes, lived on her cheek and died on her lips. That night, for the first time in her life. She cried. Not because of heartbroken. But disappointment.

    Months passed since Olivia’s heart was broken to pieces. Everything was not right. Nothing feels right. She decided to quit her studies, and start her path of becoming a novelist. Once, she was told by Andrew that she can really write stories. She wrote stories to Andrew very well. As soon as she finished her first draft of her novel. She posted the draft to Andrew with a tiny note. “Make sure you read it!” Andrew was too busy studying, he did not even bother to look at it and put it in the drawer.

   Olivia’s career as a novelist was very successful. She was the blooming artist. She’s like a primadonna of novelist. Her name was on top of the chart. She was surrounded by paparazzi, and of course, guys.

   One night, as Olivia tried to celebrate her successful with her friends and her close friend, Wesley. They stumbled when they came across Andrew. Andrew greeted Olivia with a peck on the cheek. Congratulate her on behalf of her blooming career. They hang out together on that day for the first time after years. 

    The next day, Olivia opened her door to fetch her daily newspaper when she was shocked that the person standing in front of her house was Andrew. He walked into her house, and said “I was wrong. I was wrong all along. By not thinking of you, and by leaving you, I thought I can concentrate on my studies. But I was wrong all along. It’s the other way around. By thinking of you, I can study better. By thinking of you, my life is meaningful. After all this while, I’m still in love with you.” Olivia was touched, but she tried not to be sad and said “I don’t trust you. I doubt that you’ve changed. This is not the first time I heard this kind of thing. Let’s just concentrate on our career. And of course, your important studies.” Andrew cried and he walked away from her. Once again, he disappeared. Disappeared from her life.

   After graduation, Andrew worked as an architect. And he met Olivia just right outside of his office. “You’ve gotten skinnier. Are you well?” said Olivia. Andrew nods and said “Of course I’m fine.” They went out for lunch that day. That day, Andrew asked “how old are we?” “24.” replied Olivia. “Don’t you want to get married?” asked Andrew. Olivia replied with a long face and said “I don’t believe in any commitment.” 

   They were together for quite some time as lovers. But Olivia was too busy. Always scheduling her clients and editors meeting. Working up her new novel. She forgot to pay attention bout her relationship. As her relationship fades away, Andrew felt like he was getting further away from Olivia and definitely much futher away from commitment and marriage. 

   “I’m getting married” said Andrew. “What? When?!” Olivia replied. “As soon as possible. I’m sorry. I gotta go now.” Andrew left her with tears running down his eyes. That night, Olivia decided to move on for real. Move on from Andrew. Olivia did move on. She’s getting married with a guy name Rick a few months after Andrew broke up with her. As a sign of her moving on from Andrew, she starts a new life. 

   On her wedding day, she received a letter from Andrew. Which is written on the day Andrew broke up with her. She cried her heart out.

“To Olivia.

     I know today is your happiest day in your life. I’ve asked one of my friend to give you this letter on your wedding day. If you’re reading this, I want you to know that I loved you with all my heart. And right now, I’m watching you somewhere far away. 

    I did not get married. I was suffering from an undiagnosed sickness that unable to be cure by any doctor. I don’t want to you to be sad on that day if I told you bout my sickness. I rather see you hitting me out of anger for not telling you. But I don’t want you to be sad. 

   I hope you’re happy with your new life. You are my source of life. I love you.                                                                                                        

                                                                                                   -Andrew”

   A high school boy have been living in a normal life until a person came into his life, Sara. It’s her who was playing with David’s mind all day long. In the class, canteen, school corridor and every time David gazed upon the gorgeous Sarah, his mind seems to be flying high with thoughts.

  Weeks have passed, David finally hoisted up the courage to talk to Sara. “Hey, how’s the homework that teacher gave you? Is it hard? Want me to help?” David said with blush. “Slow down, David. The homework is fine. In fact, you’re the one who doesn’t look fine to me.” Sara giggled. He smiled. And since that day, their bond between each other was stronger each and every single day.

   School year has finally end for David and Sara, they graduated high school successfully and went for graduation party in Australia, spend the whole winter there. It’s Sara’s dream place called The Lullaby. The Lullaby is where couple spend their night together, loving each other while looking at the godly scenery. David wondered why did this world gets so beautiful when there’s Sara. Under the moonlight, he kissed Sara for the first time. The moon, the stars above, and the calm air breezes, David has finally sealed the deal and be a man of Sarah’s dream.

  Time flown quickly, when David was in reach of Sara’s kisses, hugs, and loveliness. He thought that he’s in heaven. Having Sara by his side made him immortal. A perfection. A flawless person. Sara’s love effects David a lot. He woke up with smile on his face. Just the by picture of Sara, David lost in thoughts and constantly smiles alone. She gave him feeling that he adored.

  One day, Sara was send to the hospital. Based on her mother, she suffered from a fever. A few days later, there’s still no improvement for Sara. David was so worried. He insisted Sara to go for another check up and that day couldn’t just get worst when her mother said that she have a sickness called anemia. A sickness where the patient has a decreasing number of red blood cells in the body. It’s not that critical until when the doctor said that the decreasing numbers of red blood cells are caused by white blood cells. The fearful and horrible, leukemia.

  David’s tears was born from his eyes, lived on his cheeks, and died on his lips. He cried for the sake of love. His love towards Sara made him cried for love. He told Sara “My love to you, will never ever end. You made me feel on top of the world. Believe in me, I’ll make this thing turns better. I love you, Sara.” Day by day, Sara grown weaker.

  One day, David went into her radiation room, with full protection. He held onto Sara’s hand. Sara opened her eyes when she felt the presence of David. “Kiss me.” Sara cried. Earlier, the doctor said that he can’t expose any bacteria to Sara because of the radiation that she took. David can’t help the fact of looking at his love in bad condition, he would do anything for her. He ran across the hospital to the nearest pharmacy just to buy an antiseptic. He washed his mouth with it, and he kissed Sara. After month of days without the kiss of Sara. He kissed her. On that day, he cried and said “I will bring you somewhere beautiful, love. I want to be the one who makes you happy.”

  After a few days, David returned to the hospital. He whispered “Sara, I bought two plane tickets to go to Australia. If that’s the place I first kissed you. I want it to be where my first and last kiss for you..” Sara cried and hug David with full excitement. That night, they ran to the airport without their parents and hospital’s agreement. They were so excited. Sara seemed to be healthy.

  Excitements last for a while, Sara stumbled upon the floor. Blood was everywhere. She became unconscious. The warmth David feels beside her was slowly fading away. He cried for help. With Sara on his lap, mouthful of blood, David cried. Her vision slowly started to fade away, David’s calls are no longer heard by Sara. Minutes after that, she was rushed to the hospital.

  It was too late. A split seconds changed everything. David kneel down on the floor, a cried out with all his heart. On that night, he lost his one and only love. He lost his reasons of living. That night, things changed completely. David’s life changed into a  slumber of thoughts and denial.

   After attending Sara’s funeral, he cried while holding a plane ticket to Australia and a jar of Sara’s ashes. He said “No matter what, I’ve promised you.” He flew to Australia, went to the The Lullaby. Kissed Sara for the last time, and spread her ashes across the calm sea.

    Last 3 months, I got back from school. I opened my room door and as always I pushed the power button of my computer. Click on the internet browser, and start typing for facebook.

   Once I got in facebook, on my friend’s wall there was this one girl goes by the name Amanda. At first, she seems to be a very arrogant person. But once I got to know her, she was the coolest person to be with. Heck, she was the best person for me to end up with.

   Amanda, every time those name passes through my eyes, or my ears. It’s her sweet voice. Her sweet voice of singing Cuppycake by Strawberry Shortcake. My heart was melted by her actions, her words, and don’t forget bout her voice. Unfortunately, Amanda is very popular girl. She got all the famous, hot, and somebody to be with. I know I won’t have any chance, not an inch of chance. I got one secret, I got a no cure disease.

   Before I went to the operation room for my disease, Amanda called me “baby”. It was the sweetest thing and it was the saddest thing, I had to fight for her. I had to fight for her to continue calling me baby in the future. I survived the first wave. And there she was, telling me that she love me once she got the news that I’m fine. I felt like I’ve been completed by her voice.

   We went on our first date, it was at a mall near her. I bought a ticket, a movie called “Twilight Eclipse”. She watched it for the second time, and the second time was with me. It was a perfect date, she perfected my life, on that day she perfected my day. It was all about laughing and enjoying together. It was fun. I felt like I’ve been completed by her actions.

   Like normal relationship, everyone have ups and downs. She will always said that she is not a good girlfriend to me. She is not a romantic person. We was a inch from breaking apart. And there she was, stood there and said “hey, I guess my life wont be complete when there’s no you in it.” I grabbed her hand and said “If you could see my heart, it would have been better because when I’m with you, my heart smiled.” I felt like I’ve been completed by her words.

   It was a hot day, and It was our second date. We got lost in the mall, and took almost an hour to find her. She was standing at the opposite building. A completely wrong building. She was clueless, It’s one of the reason I love her. It was a nice date, we get to ride a F1 cab, the driver drive like a pro F1 driver. We watched “SALT” and to be honest, Angelina Jolie’s eyes aren’t as deep as Amanda’s eyes. We plan on watching the place at night, it was the most beautiful scenery around this area. Waterfalls, Le Gardens, Street Shops, and all those lighting. I saw a spark in her eyes, she was speechless. But I guess in her mind she said this “OMG, This is beautiful.” It was raining at that time, She bought an umbrella. And the umbrella cloth was inside my pocket. I realized it when I got home.

    The second wave started, I was rushed to the hospital. We talked for the last time on the phone. And then I was put to sleep and getting ready to cut open. By the time the operation was done, I couldn’t remember anything. Amanda was the only person who was here for me. She spend lots of days trying to make me remember, and I did remember stuff that I forgot. Thanks to her, I felt like I’ve been completed by her care.

    After the second wave, she changed. I just don’t know why. I can’t feel the Amanda I know. I don’t mind if she can’t be romantic, I don’t mind if she can’t be a good girlfriend. I love her for who she is. A small thing wont change my love towards you, Amanda. I felt like I’ve been completed by her flaws.

   I lied, I said everything’s gonna be fine after this. But the fact of I’m having cancer was hard to keep to myself. It’s burdening me. I can’t breathe. I told her the truth, and she said she got something to talk to me right after I said the truth. “I can’t lie to myself, I can’t have a commitment with you right now.” those words. Its like a needle in my heart. Punctured my heart with a little hole with the most painful pain ever. Is it just me, I don’t think I have the courage to fight for myself this time. I may just die as a cancer victim.

    Even though Amanda left me alone in this kind of situation I’m facing, I still want her to know, I felt like I’ve completed by you when you’re in my life.

   I was walking at the street that evening. I saw a girl. She’s a normal looking girl, but there’s something in her that made me went all the way for her. Maybe it’s because of her smile? or maybe it’s because of her dainty look. I found myself ending up having a crush on someone that day.

    The next day, I went to school as usual. I opened the class door, put my bag down. I felt relieved because the weight of the bag was so heavy, it was like a ton of brick on my back. The teacher came in, and said “Great news student, there’s a new student in our class. Laura, please come in.” A girl, with a ponytail and a fringe came in. I was shocked. It was her, the girl I saw the other day at the street. She started to talk “Good morning, I’m Laura. I’m new here, so hopefully there’s one of you guys who can show me the washroom after this” she giggled. The class laughed so hard, it Laura alright. Back then, she was the girl with all the jokes and humors. And she still is, and always be.

    The seat next to me was empty. She walked to that seat, and put her bag down. At that time, I was so nervous. I don’t know what to do, I started to sweat. She smiled at me and said “Why are you sweating? wait, you’re that guy I saw on the street yesterday.” I panicked and replied “oh yes, I saw you on the street. It’s not like I was stalking on you. Its just that I’ve never seen you around before.” She laughed. She show me her hand, “my name is Laura, nice to meet you Shamer” I shake her hand, and at that time I’ve created a strong bond between us.

    It was on the third months of this friendship, everything was going according to plan. Everything was perfect when I’m with her. Her jokes, her laughter, her personality, and her everything. She made me fall in love even deeper and deeper. A week ago, she a little bit down. I stand up, and walked to her. She almost cry when I reached her. I kiss her forehead in the middle of the class and said “everything’s gonna be fine.” Since that day, I found my life. The first time we kissed, my heart did flips. The first time she said “I love you”, I couldn’t breathe. The first time I realized I wanted her there for the rest of my life, I was the happiest person alive.

    One day, when I was walking home from school. My head was spinning. I see the world as if it’s a new funfair with a Mary-go-round. Suddenly, I collapsed. Unable to stand up by my own, all I could do was just cried for help. A kind-heart passer by heard my called, he called the ambulance and I was rushed to the hospital.

    I woke up in the ward, with a confusion in my head. I talked to myself “what happened to me?” The doctor knocked the door and came inside. He said “you got bone disorder. Your spine is too weak to support you. Usually, this kind of disease is from the gene.” I was clueless back then. I asked the doctor ” can I recover from this disease?” he said “I can’t tell. I’m sorry” Since that night, Laura called me every night, I slept with her voice and I can’t sleep without her voice. If my brain is a recording tape, I would record her voice. Every single words that she said to me, I’ll record it.

   Laura was crying in her room, her 8 years old baby brother came in and asked “what’s wrong sister? Why are you sad?” Laura said nothing. Her brother continued talking “It’s about your boyfriend isn’t it? I know bout his bone. Mum was talking bout it back at the dinner table. You can take my bone if that will make you stop crying sister” Laura cried harder, she hold her brother’s hand and said “thank you, you will be a great man someday, Jack.” It was the first time I knew Laura cried for me. I felt guilty.

    A few days later, I can’t stand the pain anymore. The doctor said that I have to operate by the end of that weekend. I agreed. While I was talking to Laura, the doctor cut through my conversation with Laura and he said “I got to warn you, It’s risky. You only have 35% of surviving.” I didn’t tell Laura. I don’t wish to make her cry again for me. I lied. I don’t love the way I lied. But I have to lie. Its for her own good.

    A night before the operation, Laura came to my ward. She pouted and said ” Can I please stay here for tonight? I promise I wont be naughty.” I laughed, and I carved a smile on my face and said ” Laura, I don’t mind IF you are naughty” We laughed so hard that night. She slept on the bed next to me.

   When I woke up that morning, the window was opened. The light shined brightly and the beam hit Laura directly on the face. She woke up, and look at me and said “what are you looking at baby?” I giggled “You’re beautiful. I wish you could see yourself the way I see you right now.” She kissed my forehead and thanked me for being such a great person. A few hours later, the surgeon asked me to get ready for the operation.

   8 hours after that, I survived the operation. I woke up from coma without remembering anything. I barely remember my name, There was girl stood next to me with a bright smile on her face. The first thing that she said was “I love you” At that time, there’s something in me told me that she is my love. My true love. Laura took 2 days to make me remember stuff that I forgotten. She tried everything, she showed me her blog, her words before I went to the Operation Room. She have done everything. But I still can’t remember everything.

    Today, I called her. I said ” Laura, I want to hear your voice before I sleep. And I can’t go to sleep without your voice. We did this before. And I wanna start doing it again.” She gave me strength to fight my disease. She gave me courage to remember my life.

    I wont be here if you are not there for me all this while. Your love give me life. I love you with all my heart.

   On my senior year of high school, there was a girl. Her name is Cindy. She’s beautiful. Her face glowed brightly every time I saw her smiling at me. Her hair bounced everywhere as if they were made of rubber. It was for her, I came to school just to see her.

   Its another day of school, the first thing I do right after I reached school. I will find a mirror. See my reflection, tidy up my hair, check my breathe, and make sure I’m in perfect condition. Then, I dropped my beg at the nearest table. Hoping that she was there. I tried to find her. And there she was, with her bouncy hair, her little ponytail, her cute giggle. It will never gets old.

   I ran towards her, and said “Hey Cindy, good morning” She carved a smiled on her face and said “why are you running? I wont run. And good morning sweetheart” she giggled. At that time, I was blushed by her words. She called me sweetheart for the first time and it was on 7.11am. From that moment, I fell in love. It was my first time I felt butterflies in my stomach. It was the first time, I knew that how love feels like.

   3 months before the graduation, it was the end of school at that time. Before we leave the school for the holiday, I bought a balloon and put a note in the balloon. I gave the balloon to her without her knowing what’s inside it. She hugged me before leaving the school for holidays. She whispered to me “hey, I’m glad that you are my best friend. Be my friend forever.” she let go of me, and followed her mom home.

   Actually, at that time. I felt something was not right, it’s like Cindy was holding back her words and hide something from me. I went back home with an uneasy feeling. Afraid of something might happen, I drank a lot of milk. Because it was the only way I could calm my self, the only way I could be optimistic.

  I was hoping for her to pop the balloon and found out what’s inside, too bad something happened that night. I got a call from her mom. She cried “you have to come here, Cindy is unconscious. It’s her kidney.” and she continued crying. I borrowed my dad’s bike. I rode the bike to the hospital with full adrenaline.

  That night, the rain was drizzling. I accidentally pressed on the brake too hard and my bike went spinning. I was thrown away a few meter from the bike. My head was cut opened till I can barely feel my head, it was so numb. But I took my bike, and continued my journey to the hospital. Too bad, I lost my conscious before I could reach the hospital. 

   When I woke up, I’m in the Intensive Care Unit in her hospital. I’m weak. I can barely breathe by my own. I cried “doctor, will I survive?” with a serious face, the doctor apologized “I’m sorry. your head full with blood clogs” “give my kidney to Cindy, I want her to have it. It’s my last request” A few minutes later, my vision started to fade away.

   Today, she lived and she popped the balloon. Tears dropped from her eyes when she found out the note inside the balloon said “Cindy, I don’t want to be your best friend. I wanna be your love. I love you. Since the first time we met. I like to be a part of you”

   I’ve fulfilled my words of being part of her.

When first I looked into your eyes
each breath became a thousand sighs.
My heart drummed out a thunder beat
I glowed with joy from head to feet.
The hand of love had touched my soul,
as the bell of destiny began to toll.
The tide of love began to rise,
the world was filled with summer skies.
My sodden clouds of cold and grey
glowed with gold, then swiped away.
A brilliant rainbow arched across,
as waves of love began to toss.
The air was filled with lovebird cries,
when I first looked into your eyes.

When I first looked into your eyes,
all time and space were paralyzed
And in that instant, I was shown
a universe I had never known.
I dwell there still, in Paradise,
when I look into your eyes.

By Shamer Zarfique

Today, I was at the grocery store. I was buying something for my mum. She’s having high fever. And my dad has long gone leaving our family on mother’s hand. I will be a man, and take care of my family no matter what. 

   When I was pushing my cart, I heard a woman sobbing. I turned around and tried to find her. Maybe she was in some kind of trouble. Found her, she’s an old woman, maybe in her 80’s. She was laughing so hard she was crying. A man with two carrots stuck in his nose was laughing as well. Love’s a wonderful thing. Love’s will be the only thing there to cheer us up whenever we are down.

   I was on the bus on the way back home to cook something nice for my mother. Maybe just something to make her appetite bloom. I just can’t watch my mother suffer and I must do something to make her eat. At least a few spoons of porridge.

   While I was on the bus, I saw one old man. He was holding a bouquet of roses in his arms. He saw me looking at the roses in his hand, he smiled and said “these roses are for my wife. Today is her birthday and these roses were her favorite, the white rose” His face expression changed after he told me bout his wife. I don’t know what’s wrong. If he love his wife, he should be happy. After a few stations, the old man stopped the bus in front of the cemetery.

   At that time, I realized something. Those roses was for his dead wife. His love towards his wife is so strong. Even if he’s 80’s now, he still deeply in love with his wife. He bought his wife favorite flower every year, that’s what I knew that day. His love gave me lots of fuzzy warm feeling. It’s like butterflies in my stomach.

  After 1 hour of journey by bus, I finally reached home. My house wasn’t big. We lived in poverty since my dad was gone from this world. He left his job for me to take care of my sister and mother. I opened the door, my sister welcomed me with a warm hug. She said “Brother, can you please buy me a sign language book?” I want to fulfill her desire, but I don’t have the coins for those kind of stuff. I went and borrowed money from my best friend, Helena. And took my sister to the bookshop the next day.

  It was the first time she step into a bookshop. The shop was filled with fairytale books, soft toys, and the shop’s lights was beautiful. I made a promise to my sister that day. I said “Anne. One day, brother will give you all the thing in this world” She’s a very intelligent young girl, she laughed and said “brother, It’s okay. I got everything in this world already. All I need is love from my big brother and love from mom.” My eyes, after hearing those words from my 8 years old sister. My eyes, it poured tears. I took her to the sign language’s book section. Asked her why she want this book, she said “It’s for my new classmate. He’s deaf. He can’t hear what I said. But I wanna be friend with him.”

  12 years later, I stood beside her at their wedding. Watching her do her sign saying that “I DO” I’m glad. I gave my sister and mother life back then when we are suffering. My life filled with loves. Loves gave me hopes to be strong.

By Shamer Zarfique.

   It was on the prom day, I went to my date house to pick her up. I pushed her doorbell once, no one was there. I pushed it the second time, her father opened the door and asked “What are you doing here, boy?”  Her father has the big mustache and he look like a very strict person. “I’m here to take your daughter the the prom, sir” I replied. He laughed, and invited me into the house.

   When I walked into her house, I was amazed of how things look like in the living room. The stairs shine brightly as if it’s the stairways to heaven. Her mum greeted me, and asked me to close my eyes. And then, she asked me to open my eyes, with a smile on her face she said “I present you, your date.”

   I saw an angel that day. She was walking slowly down the stairways. My jaw almost drop that day. She was so fine. She was almost perfect with her mid-curl hair, her prom dress, and my favorite necklace that I gave her a night before prom. After took an oath from her strict father, we took off to the prom.

   After 20 minutes of jams and street lights, I’ve finally arrived at the place. I opened the car’s door for her. Hold her hands and walk her to the hall. Everyone was taking photos on that night. I felt like I’m just a small person. My date, she’s a very popular girl. I got lucky, that’s what my friend said to me when I popped the question. I got lucky when fate was on my side.

   The night started with a nice slow pace song, it was Your Guardian Angel by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. It was her favorite song. The song that she asked me to sing before. I stood there, watched her smiling at me. I asked for the honor to dance with her. We danced that night, under the moonlight.

   On that starry night, our lips almost touch. It was a few centimeters away from each other lips. She distanced her head, and with a sad sad look, she said “hey, it was a nice day out. My night was filled with laughter, stars, and love. I appreciate you. But honestly, we can’t be together. I love you. But I just can’t lie to myself. Its better for us to be apart” She released my hands and I just watched her walked away from me.

  Today, I’m a grown man. It’s been 10 years since the last time I saw her. But, her smell, her hair flows, and her perfume. I believe it’s love, I haven’t move on and I’m still having feelings towards her. For the past 10 years, I’ve been living as a man who can’t find the meaning of life. What if that day, instead of watching her walked away. What if I go and grab her hand, and tell her how I feel. Would it change my life?

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you’ re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU. The one who turns to his friends and says, “that’s her”