Your dose.

   I was walking at the street that evening. I saw a girl. She’s a normal looking girl, but there’s something in her that made me went all the way for her. Maybe it’s because of her smile? or maybe it’s because of her dainty look. I found myself ending up having a crush on someone that day.

    The next day, I went to school as usual. I opened the class door, put my bag down. I felt relieved because the weight of the bag was so heavy, it was like a ton of brick on my back. The teacher came in, and said “Great news student, there’s a new student in our class. Laura, please come in.” A girl, with a ponytail and a fringe came in. I was shocked. It was her, the girl I saw the other day at the street. She started to talk “Good morning, I’m Laura. I’m new here, so hopefully there’s one of you guys who can show me the washroom after this” she giggled. The class laughed so hard, it Laura alright. Back then, she was the girl with all the jokes and humors. And she still is, and always be.

    The seat next to me was empty. She walked to that seat, and put her bag down. At that time, I was so nervous. I don’t know what to do, I started to sweat. She smiled at me and said “Why are you sweating? wait, you’re that guy I saw on the street yesterday.” I panicked and replied “oh yes, I saw you on the street. It’s not like I was stalking on you. Its just that I’ve never seen you around before.” She laughed. She show me her hand, “my name is Laura, nice to meet you Shamer” I shake her hand, and at that time I’ve created a strong bond between us.

    It was on the third months of this friendship, everything was going according to plan. Everything was perfect when I’m with her. Her jokes, her laughter, her personality, and her everything. She made me fall in love even deeper and deeper. A week ago, she a little bit down. I stand up, and walked to her. She almost cry when I reached her. I kiss her forehead in the middle of the class and said “everything’s gonna be fine.” Since that day, I found my life. The first time we kissed, my heart did flips. The first time she said “I love you”, I couldn’t breathe. The first time I realized I wanted her there for the rest of my life, I was the happiest person alive.

    One day, when I was walking home from school. My head was spinning. I see the world as if it’s a new funfair with a Mary-go-round. Suddenly, I collapsed. Unable to stand up by my own, all I could do was just cried for help. A kind-heart passer by heard my called, he called the ambulance and I was rushed to the hospital.

    I woke up in the ward, with a confusion in my head. I talked to myself “what happened to me?” The doctor knocked the door and came inside. He said “you got bone disorder. Your spine is too weak to support you. Usually, this kind of disease is from the gene.” I was clueless back then. I asked the doctor ” can I recover from this disease?” he said “I can’t tell. I’m sorry” Since that night, Laura called me every night, I slept with her voice and I can’t sleep without her voice. If my brain is a recording tape, I would record her voice. Every single words that she said to me, I’ll record it.

   Laura was crying in her room, her 8 years old baby brother came in and asked “what’s wrong sister? Why are you sad?” Laura said nothing. Her brother continued talking “It’s about your boyfriend isn’t it? I know bout his bone. Mum was talking bout it back at the dinner table. You can take my bone if that will make you stop crying sister” Laura cried harder, she hold her brother’s hand and said “thank you, you will be a great man someday, Jack.” It was the first time I knew Laura cried for me. I felt guilty.

    A few days later, I can’t stand the pain anymore. The doctor said that I have to operate by the end of that weekend. I agreed. While I was talking to Laura, the doctor cut through my conversation with Laura and he said “I got to warn you, It’s risky. You only have 35% of surviving.” I didn’t tell Laura. I don’t wish to make her cry again for me. I lied. I don’t love the way I lied. But I have to lie. Its for her own good.

    A night before the operation, Laura came to my ward. She pouted and said ” Can I please stay here for tonight? I promise I wont be naughty.” I laughed, and I carved a smile on my face and said ” Laura, I don’t mind IF you are naughty” We laughed so hard that night. She slept on the bed next to me.

   When I woke up that morning, the window was opened. The light shined brightly and the beam hit Laura directly on the face. She woke up, and look at me and said “what are you looking at baby?” I giggled “You’re beautiful. I wish you could see yourself the way I see you right now.” She kissed my forehead and thanked me for being such a great person. A few hours later, the surgeon asked me to get ready for the operation.

   8 hours after that, I survived the operation. I woke up from coma without remembering anything. I barely remember my name, There was girl stood next to me with a bright smile on her face. The first thing that she said was “I love you” At that time, there’s something in me told me that she is my love. My true love. Laura took 2 days to make me remember stuff that I forgotten. She tried everything, she showed me her blog, her words before I went to the Operation Room. She have done everything. But I still can’t remember everything.

    Today, I called her. I said ” Laura, I want to hear your voice before I sleep. And I can’t go to sleep without your voice. We did this before. And I wanna start doing it again.” She gave me strength to fight my disease. She gave me courage to remember my life.

    I wont be here if you are not there for me all this while. Your love give me life. I love you with all my heart.